My one word for 2017 is brave.
Because 2016 was terrifying, and some of my experiences this year will be reverberating in my life for years to come.
Perhaps most importantly, my pregnancy and delivery with Tigger was…bad. As in, he’s 8 months old now and I still haven’t completely recovered. After experiencing a complication that somewhere between 1 and 2 percent of women experience, I was wracked with fear. Who cares how small the chance is of something bad happening? It sure didn’t matter last time.
Being that unfortunate 1% rocks one’s world. Bad things don’t just happen to other people. They happen to YOU. It’s not an abstract concept any more. It’s not a maybe. It’s not far away. It doesn’t matter that you’re 22, or health conscious, or generally healthy. It Does. Not. Matter.
And if it happened once, then it sure seems likely that it’ll happen again. Whether rationally or irrationally, this pattern of thinking becomes a new normal.
But I’m saying NO MORE.
“For God hath not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.” – 2 Timothy 1:7 (King James Version)
God does not call me to be afraid. He calls us to have courage:
“Have I not commanded thee? Be strong and of good courage. Be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed, for the Lord thy God is with thee, whithersoever thou goest.” – Joshua 1:9 (King James Version)
As I move forward with my life, I’m making the choice to be brave. One of my favorite hymns is “Come Thou Found.” Part of the lyrics have really resonated with me as I have sought to move on from difficult life experiences.
Here I raise my Ebenezer, hither by Thy help I’ve come
And I hope by Thy good pleasure safely to arrive at home
Ebenezer means “Stone of Help.” In 1 Samuel 7, the Israelites had just been delivered from the Philistines. The prophet Samuel set up a stone and called it Ebenezer, to commemorate how the Lord had helped the Israelites to overcome their tormentors.
Here, as I write, I’m raising my Ebenezer. Hither by Thy help I’ve come, Lord. Help me to remember that you never leave me, and that You call me to have courage.
And help me to be brave.